Two months into our relationship you once asked me how much I loved you and I just said “From here”. You didn’t get it and you got mad and thought I was playing around.
Breaking up after almost two years together, I sent you a message 6 months later saying “To Here”.
You still didn’t get it.
I feel torn apart
Never did I expect to understand what it’s like to actually be so in love
The kind of love where every pump of my heart beats out the syllables of his name
His hands feel strong and safe, even gripped tightly around my neck
His soft lips melt into mine and feel so warm when he kisses my forehead, like home.
When our bodies are together nothing else in the world exists
I feel so torn
He is the better side of me
My best friend and my soul mate
And not having him with me months on end is like dying a little each day
My hand is searching for it’s companion to hold
My bed feels miles wide as my sheets swallow me in loneliness
I miss him so much my body shakes
And even though I’ve learned to control those damn tears, for the most part, my entity is broken and sad
Of course I can survive on my own
I am a strong woman
But it doesn’t make me weak to admit I’m a better woman with him standing next to me
We’re an amazing team
I miss my sunflower
We will be together soon älskling